Thursday, February 10, 2011

what He is doing in me

I grew up in church. My parents made sure my sister and I were there every Sunday and every Wednesday night. And I LOVED my church. All of my friends went there. I had a wonderful Sunday School class and a tight-knit youth group.  I accepted Jesus as my Savior at a very young age.  I was a leader in my youth group. I stood up to peer pressure in high school and I didn't care if I missed the wild parties on the weekends because I knew God didn't want me to be there.

Then came college.

I stopped attending church regularly. I found it more "fun" to stay up late on Saturday nights and sleep all day on Sunday than to go to church.  I started living for my self instead of living for Christ.  I was more concerned about the things this world considered important rather than what God considered important.  I stopped focusing on having a personal relationship with my Savior and focused on finding an earthly relationship. I felt since I was in college it was time to be in a serious relationship. So I dated.  But I kept getting disappointed.  I was so frustrated with dating and was ready to call it quits.  I finally prayed and told God I was sick and tired of the whole dating process.  I gave it all to Him. If it was His plan for me to get married then I would, if not then I would accept it. 

A few months later in December 2009 I started to date Jonathan. Shortly after we got together we knew we would get married.  I finally started to think about my future.  I knew it was time to find a church in Memphis.  We started attending Highpoint Church together.  I first went to Highpoint with my uncle when I was in high school and I went there on and off throughout my college career. So I decided why not start there. Highpoint is an amazing church.  We went for a few months and I learned a lot.  However; I did not feel like it was the place God wanted us to be.  I became very discouraged.  I was starting to think I wouldn't be able to find a church home in Memphis.  A little over a month ago Jonathan suggested we go to Bellevue Baptist Church, the church he went to all his life and where his family still attends.  I was hesitant at first. Bellevue is HUGE and coming from such a small church in Somerville, I didn't think I would like it.

I was wrong.  Bellevue has been such a blessing to me! I have finally found were God wants me to be.  Where God wants US to be.  I can't even express the peace that brings.  I look forward to every service and I can't wait to see what God is going to do in our lives through Bellevue.

The most important thing is that my relationship with Christ is better than it has EVER been. I start and end each day with prayer and the reading of scripture. Through prayer He has revealed to me my sins and is giving me the strength to resist temptation.  My love for Him is growing and growing and because of this my desire to sin is becoming less and less.  I am SO thankful for a Savior that never gives on us.  His love for us is impossible for me to comprehend but I'm so grateful for it.  

I am becoming more and more exciting about getting married!  I've been reading a book called Sacred Marriage.  Through this book God has taught me so much about why He created marriage and now I'm more ready than ever to become Jonathan's wife! In the book the author (Gary Thomas) poses this question, "What if God designed marriage to make us more holy than to make us happy?" I think Gary hit the nail on the head! God created marriage to glorify Him! I know that our marriage won't always be perfect.  There will be hard times, but I know that God will use any struggle to build our character and help us become more like Him. I thank God everyday for creating marriage and for allowing me be Jonathan's wife. I can't wait to see how God is going to use our marriage to draw us closer to Him!  I'm just a little excited, can ya tell??!! :)

Sorry for the rambling but my heart is SO incredibly full right now and just can't hold it in!

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